Aku dah berubah!!Orang yg kenal aku rapat jer dpt tau perubahan aku... :)
Dulu aku selalu pegel2 dengan Fauzi.Tak paham situation sebenar die..Aku selalu pikir yg die tu tk endahkan aku.Selalu busy main bola,klw nk bebual mlm msti lmbat ard kul 11 coz mak die will bising..So,tat time aku tot that he nk kol pompan lain...Cepat jealous giler babs punyer..i myself dunno why...!! Always tknk bertolak ansur...Selalu nk menang..Selalu mengamok tk tentu pasal,tk tentu arah...! Frankly speaking,bnyak kali aku TERnangis sebab geramkan abt him...Every night i will be angry coz get damn frustrated when he wanted to sleep early ataupon nk keluar dok dok ngn kwn..Die pernah bilang tkkan aku tk percayekan die after 2yrs plus matair,but then aku sendiri tkle figure out apasal perasaan aku tu mcm..Pernah la sekali dua aku try berubah nk paham segala-galanya,tpi memang tkleh..Geram jer bile bual ngn die.Macam semua tk kene! Nanti ader jer yg nk aku besar-besarkan cerita.. Even though that stuff was like meeting him friend ataupon nk p main bola kat padang near his house...That time aku tibe2 pikir lain..As if ader org yg hasut aku that he is going somewhere else! haiz~~ Masih teringat whenever aku pegel2 dgn dier every night,i will slam down the phone without saying bye ataupon without ending the conversation with a proper manner..Then,bile die kol balik,i will shout at him and say that i dun wanna hear his voice and wanted to go to bed..Klw die tk kol balik pulak,nti sart la merepek aku..Msg die yg bukan2 like saying that i wanna go out to meet my friends or even worst,i tell him that i really hate him
..*sorry*
Kadang2,i will be angry till then next night,but mostly the next day biler im cooled down.. And he will still be the same,means mcm tk mrh or wat la...Cume always tell me to really understand his situation and also menguatkan lagi yg die tu benar2 jujur..I really can't lend my ears to all his words~ Buat tk dgr jer..Lebih2 lagik when he start to tell the "story" about his soccer stuffs...! mcm nk hempas jer tu talipon ataupon nk jerit sekuat hati!!!!! argh~~~ :p
Tapi now,the year 2005,mungkin jugak new year resolution aku,to change myself in a sense that i really need to understand that Fauzi is really damn interested in soccer...So in this year 2005,i tell myself that "KLW JODOH TK KEMANE.." i myself realise that i really change! Tk dpt dinafikan that my perangai is much more better compare than last time..Skrg,simple,die klw rasa rindu,nk kol,disilakan kol..If rasa busy and really can't kol me,i really won't mind this time round.. :) At night,klw da nk put down, i just say "ok" and put down baik2...Die pon tekejot sey....he says that i really change...! da tk geram when he wants to go out or to football.. Aku lgik kater "take care kat bola nti"...Dulu tkd tu mcm sey... :)
Aku sokong die by tgk die main bola and ask about teams yg gerek2...Rally felt cool this time...hahaha...!Da tk pegel2 very night and tk pernah nagis lagik since the year 2005 arrives...... :) Mungkin selama 3 tahun aku knal die,itula masanya untuk aku memahami dan mengenali dirinya lebih rapat...Selama perhubungan kiter yg selalu aku geram2 or marah2,itu semua maybe titik permulaan kot..Tu saje jer nk menduga kesetiaan dia..Alhamdulillah,nampaknyer die memang betol2 sabar and setia...Sampai sekarang,da masok 3 tahun lebih relationship kiter + ups and downs,akhirnya tuhan tunjukkan jalan untuk akuy mngatasi masalah aku dulu! hehehe...Ksabaran die ader balasannyer,dan tahun inilah,2005,telah tertulis.....
Insyaallah aku akan try untuk mempertahankan semua yg da kitr bina same2 la... Klw tkd aral melintang,sapela tau jodoh kite panjang,"Abeh tak tau!" hahaha..... :p
*Luv u Og*
